I am having a very low day.

So I said I was going to try and post more and I meant it.

I have been having a very low day, and I don't know if that's because I didn't get home from my internship until almost four and had trouble sleeping.

Or because of all the nightmares I've been having lately. I even had them when I tried to take a nap earlier and I am pretty sure I've been crying in my sleep. I go to sleep crying wake up crying, spend a lot of time crying basically.

I can't handle faking things for the internship much longer things are getting worse in my mind and at home.

Donations have slowed down at my gofundme that's okay I didn't expect it to work over night, but I really need to find a job somewhere far away, I am looking on the east coast. In the New York area the transit system is really great, and given I'm not allowed to drive it's a must. I've also been looking in the Boston Area.  

If anyone has any leads please let me know I don't think I can hold on much longer. I wish I could find away to post the gofundme to facebook with out the people I live with or any of my family seeing it. But it's a big chance. 

The Storm

 The Storm
Original Erotic Fiction 
NC-17 

I wrote this original story enjoy, it's super smutty. 

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 I am not strong enough to keep going. I can't do this anymore. I am sick can't go to the doctor, I get accused of having hidden money. I just.... the suicide chat is busy and I don't have the privacy to call the hotline.  I give up.