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I am not doing well. I am not stable, and I just ruined one of the few friendships I have. I can't stop crying and I don't see away out. I don't see any point where it gets better.
The good days are non existent, and the stable days are quickly fading away as well. I haven't had one stable day this week. I hurt myself most days a week.
I feel like I am falling a part and pushing away the people who actually talk to me.
Applying for jobs and sleeping in the hallway is not working in my favor, I am trapped in this emotionally abusive house, I am trapped with out mental health care. I don't even get to leave the house.
I have done any of the things I love in almost a year. No costumes, no comics, no conventions, no friends.... I can't stop crying right now.
I feel like I can't handle life right now. I feel like I have no control over any part of it. I feel like I am falling apart and ruining the few good things I have left.
I need to get out of here, I need help, but it's not going to happen, it's not going to change.
The good days are non existent, and the stable days are quickly fading away as well. I haven't had one stable day this week. I hurt myself most days a week.
I feel like I am falling a part and pushing away the people who actually talk to me.
Applying for jobs and sleeping in the hallway is not working in my favor, I am trapped in this emotionally abusive house, I am trapped with out mental health care. I don't even get to leave the house.
I have done any of the things I love in almost a year. No costumes, no comics, no conventions, no friends.... I can't stop crying right now.
I feel like I can't handle life right now. I feel like I have no control over any part of it. I feel like I am falling apart and ruining the few good things I have left.
I need to get out of here, I need help, but it's not going to happen, it's not going to change.